those who know me know me know I wear my heart on my sleeve. i'm infatuated with love which leads to me to constantly telling my friends,family & partner how much they mean to me. I live for today and sometimes fear that i won't have a tomorrow which is why i'm always telling those i love them. I believe in common curtsey & manners, i think it goes a long way. some reason i'm always switched on to the way i treat people.
like most people i've had a few bumps in my road. sometimes these things stupidly still affects most of my decisions today. i'm somewhat grateful for it now i know who & what is important in life. I know to value those close to me I will never trust anyone again so easily. my trust issues are also my downfall especially being someone who wears their heart on their sleeve I sometimes set myself up for ridicule. It took me two years to properly trust & let people into my life again. how many times i contemplated running away i'll never know. I guess your problems just follow you regardless of where you are. trusting and letting my boyfriend into my life was one of the hardest yet best thing in my life i've done. i don't know if he knew how hard it was to let myself trust him regardless he is the best person i know. two years later and we're still together & i've learnt to trust him whole heartily. i love him with every part of me. I didn' t really believe i'd find love at my age i thought that would come later in life but i've never felt so comfortable and sure about my feelings. being with him has made me feel real happiness, we can be doing nothing & still be happy. i know sometimes i try to make everything perfect about our relationship & might get on his case, but he is what is perfect & that's all I need, everything else is just a bonus.
I speak highly and proudly of all my close friends. they're the most beautiful, kind, unique people you will come across. i couldn't ask for better people to be around. i share every part of my life with them majority of it embarrassing or silly. my three best friends have never left my side i'm forever grateful. when they've seen me at my worst they definitely deserve me at my best.
As you can probably tell i'm emotionally strung, i've never really been able to detach myself emotionally from anything. i've learnt now not to care so much what others think of me, especially when they're being negative. I'm strong minded and opinionated but in a very introverted kind of way. only a few people get to see this side to me. which is probably because I hate offending people. i don't think i'm insecure i think it all relates back to my ideologies on curtsey. Although that's all pretty deep i certainly enjoy my fun and majority of the time i'm very silly & find amusement in the smallest of things. im clumsey as all get out, probably have two left feet and make weird noises when i'm bored,over tired & very excited. One of my best mates described me as a child with A.D.D, I just tend to get overly excited about things a lot of the time.
my favourite moment (so far) my boyfriend had read somewhere (probably on my blog/facebook) that i wanted the one that loves me to play Bon Iver's Skinny Love to me. i arrived at his house & find it to be filled with over 100 tea-light candles leading down the stairs to his room. where i found my boyfriend standing in the middle of the room playing skinny love. he held me, said nothing, & let the song play. I think that's when i realised that i really truly loved him. it was absolutely perfect.
I tend not to be so private about my relationship because i want to share how amazing my boyfriend is and the wonderful ways he makes me feel.
I'm a rambling girl I cant keep my feet sturdy on the ground, i always want to be out seeing and doing new things. this year i'm finally travelling and seeing some major parts of the world. im sure there will be lots of photos on here and my facebook for you to look at.standing under christ redeemer, the effiel tower, swimming with sea turtles, bathing at the greek islands, throwing tomatoes in Spain, eating real pizza from Itay, discovering new bands in London. my travelling is all i dream about. im travelling with my family for a month & then my best friend for four months. i really hope that one day my boyfriend and i can explore a part of the world together and share new experiences.
I wish i read more, detoxed more, shopped less, cared less, lived closer or with my boyfriend, i wish i could spend all my days with my girlfriends giggling, i wish i spent more time rummaging through opp shops finding treasures & sometimes i wish i knew more about the ways of the world than i do.
however as much as wish, i am happy with the person that i am. i enjoy learning new things about myself. i love the people in my life and the moments that i've shared with them & i look forward to the future every day with the adventures that are installed for me.
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